Stan, I desperately wanted to have children. Family is really important to me and I wanted to be a mother, then a grandmother. I wanted my grandchildren to visit me when I was old. I have a son and I'm very grateful that I have him but I didn't plan to have a child with a disability. He will not have children and I will never be a grandmother. Unfortunately life doesn't always work out the way we want it to but ... well I am a survivor. No matter what happens I just keep moving forward and .... I don't know really. I was thinking about this the other day when I'd been feeling really down and went for a walk. I realised that I must have a very strong survival instinct. You are the same. For some reason, we just keep plodding along no matter what life throws at us.
Hang in there Stan. Things WILL get better. They WILL!
