Life can humble a person in a huge way (LOL). And yes, I do know that you adhere to the same philosophy but as you mention, it certainly is very hard to trust such a painful process however, I trust in those who have walked this journey BEFORE me.
Without the success stories I wouldn't be have fought for so long and for so hard. I am eternally GRATEFUL to those who have written their stories along with those who have generously given their time to run support sites etc. Without such, we would have been lost or not even present.
Imagine what people went through before the internet was available! Many more suicides likely occurred. so painful for me to even think about what those people went through.
Our evolution is on-going and will continue long after we recover. Man, I just want to rest for awhile. (LOL) I'm certain you feel the same way. :)
I'm at the point where I feel no need to expand my intellect any further, since, in the end, intellect is of little importance. Love, peace, equanimity, connection, humanity etc. are the essentials in life IMHO. I've spent too many years trying to feed my ego driven need to fill my mind with volumes of information and in the end, it doesn't really feed the spirit.
I know people who are far less academically educated but are very happy, decent, kind and good/generous souls and I value their souls immensely since, they are not bogged down with intellectual stresors.
Samsara
i have as always to translate in google, and then read in english,
it is beautiful, healthy, natural, human, the real values of life!
12 years paxil(9 years only 10 mg) - cold turkey(1,5 month) and switch celexa tapered 1 year 20 mg
62 years old - for GAD - 4 years 3 months meds free [since april 2009]
vegetables soup - orange (vit C) - curcuma - some meat or fish