I am suffering so badly. I feel hopeless, and extremely depressed. I dont want to live anymore seriously. I see so many people suffer for so long like Buxy222, Squirrel, Elisa, Leo, Frankdee and all of you guys here still disabled and having really horrible symptoms even 8/9 years off. Some didnt even take this for that long. I messed up so badly. Really badly and had an adverse reaction on top of everything. I am suffering with no let up of symptoms I dont even feel better for 1 minute. I have severe depression, massive derealization, apathy, anhedonia, Heart palpitations, dizziness, tinnitus, head pressure, sinus, fatigue when does this end? Please I dont know if I can hold on anymore I am very suicidal and dont know what to do. I know people recover but i have also seen people not recover I cant live like this anymore. I dont have insurance or money so how must i go see someone to talk to or help me? Im stuck and dont see an end to this. Really i dont see how this can get any better.
I suffered from depression and anxiety since I was small but it was bareable. I am at my wits end.