Junior - I'm safe at work, and after that I am at home with my mom. I dont want to commit suicide I really really dont. This is just Sooo hard living like this 24/7 it makes my life so incredibly hard.

Well, my anxiety is better, but then my DR got worse... I dont understand it. I sleep well at night, so i guess thats a positive. I have so much to live for, but its not worth it in the current state im in. I cant enjoy anything. I breed Chihuahuas and just recently had a beautiful litter, but cant feel joy or happiness. It breaks me. I was once a very emotional person, could feel deeply. It saddens me to see the person that I have become...

I see what you mean. I guess if im more positive things would be easier for me... I need to start implementing that now. I dont know why i cant stop reading the negative. Whats wrong with me? Why am I doing this?