I’m so sorry you are going through Hell. It really will get better. You mention TTGW, and she has improved vastly from her early days of w/d Hell.
The assault by early memories and the extreme regret and guilt are very, very common. It eases up and then ends all by itself. Indeed, it may be cold comfort, but everything you describe is very, very common, and it gets better for *everyone*. Even the people having protracted w/d are not in this kind of early w/d Hell any more.
You might want to look into amber sunglasses --
http://survivingantidepressants.org/...out-blue-light
You know, like Alex, you may be in the very worst post-taper period – 5-9 months. Many people are in the worst Hell around that time and then in starts to get better.
You’re life is going to be so, so different in the future. You just can’t even imagine it now. You’re too sick. But, this will all be over with.
