OK, what I take from your account is that you have not had your experiences attended to enough, and that part of your healing will involve paying good attention to yourself, and finding some good attention from others.
From my reading, I have seen that it is very common for children to have spiritual / psychic experiences which they get no guidance for. They try to tell adults about what's happening to them and they get ignored, disbelieved, punished, or misinterpreted.
So, if I were you, I would do a lot of research on all aspects of your experience -- the physical, the psychological, and the spiritual -- and keep your eyes open for people you can get bits of information from. I think you have done a lot of research on the physical aspects, but not yet on the psychological and spiritual aspects.
