thanks Sheila
new resolutions in my life from today(a few days before 61 years)
- accept that I have to rest quite often when I walk, have dizziness, chest pain, bad vision
- accept that I can not make an effort, even small muscular
- accept nocturia, dry mouth and eyes, accept that it may improve or if I have Sjogren go worse
- accept that my emotions are too high, too much adrenal
- accept having akathisia mostly standing, and it may not improve and have to live with
- accept the ribcage chest pain when I move
- accept that all this will be worse and improves with time
- accept that I am an anxious, that paxil has made worse,
- accept that improvements here and there will take months and months
- accept i will never improve as strong as i was before my big mistake of trusting doctors
- accept dying will naturally come when it will be my time
- decide to never trust medical until die
- decide to rebuilt a new life in this chaos, step by step, to try to suffer the less possible
