when i walk, i have to think about, how put legs, how breath, where have i to look, if someone looks at me, when i see someone i need to play comedy as if i am natural (but it is not), i am tensed,
no movement is made relaxed
when i walk, i have to think about, how put legs, how breath, where have i to look, if someone looks at me, when i see someone i need to play comedy as if i am natural (but it is not), i am tensed,
no movement is made relaxed
12 years paxil(9 years only 10 mg) - cold turkey(1,5 month) and switch celexa tapered 1 year 20 mg
62 years old - for GAD - 4 years 3 months meds free [since april 2009]
vegetables soup - orange (vit C) - curcuma - some meat or fish
I had this, too, Stan. I talked to myself out loud or in my head c-o-n-s-t-a-n-t-l-y to tell myself how to do things or to reassure myself. This continued for a long time.
I do not have to do this any more! I do not have to keep detailed lists of obvious daily chores. I can do things faster and more automatically.
This will happen for you, too, Stan! You are doing a fantastic job of surviving and going forward!
Last edited by Sheila; 08-21-2011 at 05:09 PM.
Meds free since June 2005.
"An initiation into shamanic healing means a devaluation of all values, an overturning of the profane world, a peeling away of inveterate handed-down notions of the world, liberation from everything preconceived. For that reason, shamanism is closely connected with suffering. One must suffer the disintegration of one's own system of thought in order to perceive a new world in the higher space."
-- Holger Kalweit
Very much the same here, Stan, though, as crazily as it may look, in early WD it was even more intense. We need to be patient then.