That's a difficult one, the first 20 months or so I was just a total physical and mental mess... in those days the intestinal cramps and diarrea were very bad and so were the ruminations about my bully experience from 20 years earlier.
In the subsequent phase of w/d, those thoughts occasionally poppud up again, the diarrea was gone but the neuro-electrical symptoms were still very bad and made working completely impossible. Right now I feel pretty exhausted by the whole experience but feel a massive recovery too. It is still the neuropathic stuff, the jolts in the chest and the eye spasms who still hinder my functioning. But it is the last phase of w/d though improvement is still very slow. I expect this symptom will finally vanish and that will bring me to the next level: building a new career and cope with this whole horrific experience.
But at the same time I am grateful for overcoming the first horrific period without getting back to the meds, though it would have been better when I had discovered PaxilPRogress immediately and getting back and tapering proerpy was still an option. But unfortunetely I had no idea what was going on nor did my 3 therapists at that time...
I still am very sorry that no therapist put me on the right track in that time, although they were firmly against meds, they did not have any knowledge about protracted w/d, even the orthomoleculair doctor I visisted only gave me supplements to "detox my body from the meds", but we know now that it does not work that way with these scary meds.
