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    Thank you Shel, I am having a major breakdown this week. Everything seems to be getting worse. I posted an update on PP because I hoped that someone there might have been in similar place and made it:
    http://www.paxilprogress.org/forums/...ad.php?t=60358
    10;mg PAXIL 12 YEARS
    C/T June 2012

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    Just read the link to your PP post. It sounds like there are others, particularly Shiloh, who did not have any change that first year. Maybe others will come along as well with similar experiences. I can only hope the worsening in your symptoms is actually a sign of positive change to come. I know that it doesn't feel that way though and I am so frustrated for you that this week has been so awful, that everything seems to be getting worse. You've made it bravely through this whole year of hell, I do think it has to get better - I just wish we knew when. In the meantime, you are doing what you can. I wish I could give you a great big hug.
    2006 Rx'd Cymbalta for approx 1 yr. WD after 4 mos - didn't realize was WD,took Zoloft and Klonopin; tapered K. Spring 2012 experienced major WD symptoms while tapering Zoloft; tried to updose but no relief, back on K 1 mg. Switched over 5-6 mos from Zoloft to Citalopram. Finished Zoloft 1/13; now on Citalopram 35 mg and 1 mg Klonopin. Started to experience withdrawal symptoms from switch (?) approx. 3 months after finished Zoloft (4/13). Now at 35 mg and hoping to start slow taper

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    Mona -- You just can't trust your assessment of your future right now. I know your real situation is truly bad, but your thinking and emotion have been shanghaied by the chemical chaos. You can't *feel* right now that you are going to heal, that it is not going to stay this way.

    You are tapering a benzo right now, and that, on top of the previous neuro challenges, is just making you feel dreadful. You should definitely not make another drop right now, but, done slowly and patiently, this *is* going to be part of what makes you heal ultimately.

    Also, you're going to be experimenting with the Omega-3, something which no one has gone very high on that we know of, and that is going to contribute to your healing.
    Meds free since June 2005.

    "An initiation into shamanic healing means a devaluation of all values, an overturning of the profane world, a peeling away of inveterate handed-down notions of the world, liberation from everything preconceived. For that reason, shamanism is closely connected with suffering. One must suffer the disintegration of one's own system of thought in order to perceive a new world in the higher space."
    -- Holger Kalweit

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    Thank you for your advice over the past months Sheila. Like the others I will really miss this special forum which you and luc created. I wish you much luck and healing in the future.
    10;mg PAXIL 12 YEARS
    C/T June 2012

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    oh its so sad, god bless you sally
    Put on citalopram July 2009 during a physical illness - didnt need it. 40mg
    went down to 20mg July 2010 CT in Jan 2012 - 2.5 years on.
    Tried to restart July 2012 due to 1 panic attack (never had one before - start of CT W/D) - adverse reaction
    Down to 1.5mg from the failed RI
    Now at 0.48 and trying to stabalize - been 6 weeks
    now have SEVERE anxiety, akathsia, feel like Im on acid 24/7 depression, D/P, signed off work. Scared of everything..please God let me heal from this

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