I think it might be harder for those closest to us to see us suffer because they get distressed themselves. Maybe because they are unable to make things better it causes them to feel helpless and frustrated.
Just one thought through the confusion is that you have improved on the path you have been on. Or apparent confusion, because I'm not sure how much difference there is. I'm not knowledgeable in the kundalini, but from what I've gathered reading dp&dr forum and self help books not wrestling with the thoughts and sensations is part of it. I'm no expert on nothing, but I do think that drug induced dissociation (especially WD, maybe not a bad LSD-trip) can be a bit trickier than one triggered in a war veteran, and we need to be more accepting that things will linger around regardless.

Stay strong.