Quote Originally Posted by mona View Post
My capsules are 1,250 mg fish oil, 1000 mg epa+dha per. I was taking 2 each day but this week went down to 1. I have some less powerful capsules and will start adding them back next week.

Today was another very bad day. It's now 3PM and it usually begins to improve about 4 or 5 but I haven't had a simicalm evening in two weeks. I think of myself as almost 14 months off paxil but in reality I did try zoloft and celexa for a month so It only been 11.5 months since I ceased all ssri drugs. I don't know if that means anything in terms of recovery, but likely there's a lot more suffering ahead.

My cousin just wrote that she is expecting her third grandchild. I honestly can't imagine ever being able to tolerate the presence of a small child. I can't even imagine being able to attend my son's wedding (fortunately there isn't one planned at this time). I spent 20 years as a florist and always assumed that when he married I'd be able to do the flowers and it makes me sad to realize that I likely won't be able to. Yesterday I was able to go to the grocery store but today I couldn't have managed it, so some days are better than others. Must hold onto that for hope.
I am so sorry today was another bad day. I am glad there are some days that are better than others, although I know those days aren't exactly fun either. I think you are right though - hold onto that for hope. I think it is a good sign that there is some change there, even if it is small - that must mean something, that the body is recovering albeit way slower than we would like.