6/3 evening
great day today, lots of energy, just some vague depersonalization/nothingness/emptiness late afternoon, feeling like falling down a rabbit hole.
6/3 evening
great day today, lots of energy, just some vague depersonalization/nothingness/emptiness late afternoon, feeling like falling down a rabbit hole.
Prozac/Birth Control 9 years. Pot 6/09 to 3/11. Female Problems. Short trials: Paxil, Celexa, Lexipro, Wellbutrin, Xanax, Ativan. CURRENTLY Lamictal from 10/11. Seroquel from 12/11. Remiron from 12/11: 15-30-45-30-15-to 7.5 7/2012, to 3.75 4/1/13. 5/18 3.75/2. Diagnosis Now: Complex PTSD. Regular Acupuncture/EMDR/therapy/yoga class. PERFECT RESIGNATION GIVES THE DEEPEST JOY OF ALL. ACCEPT IT AS YOUR SOLE RESOURCE. -ANANADAMAYI MA
The Inner Light - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4n8DQknrOOc
It's great news about those moments in which you feel so much better - there will be more of them with time.
Keep walking. Just keep walking.
6/4 another good day, in city, feeling so much calmer, clearer. only one temper tantrum over a food problem, got over it quickly.
Prozac/Birth Control 9 years. Pot 6/09 to 3/11. Female Problems. Short trials: Paxil, Celexa, Lexipro, Wellbutrin, Xanax, Ativan. CURRENTLY Lamictal from 10/11. Seroquel from 12/11. Remiron from 12/11: 15-30-45-30-15-to 7.5 7/2012, to 3.75 4/1/13. 5/18 3.75/2. Diagnosis Now: Complex PTSD. Regular Acupuncture/EMDR/therapy/yoga class. PERFECT RESIGNATION GIVES THE DEEPEST JOY OF ALL. ACCEPT IT AS YOUR SOLE RESOURCE. -ANANADAMAYI MA
The Inner Light - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4n8DQknrOOc
Sending good energy!
Meds free since June 2005.
"An initiation into shamanic healing means a devaluation of all values, an overturning of the profane world, a peeling away of inveterate handed-down notions of the world, liberation from everything preconceived. For that reason, shamanism is closely connected with suffering. One must suffer the disintegration of one's own system of thought in order to perceive a new world in the higher space."
-- Holger Kalweit
Day #4
still a good day overall although more depression, just feeling lost, but made it to ballet class and back, around 3pm took 1/4 a Seroquel --had not had any daytime Sq since I stopped the Remiron, just didn't need it, not that anxious. then another 1/4 at 5pm, started feeling kind of down then way down but not the same as the Rem depression, more like the earth was falling away from under my feet, more of a physical sensation, very strong. I laid down on my bed and my son brought me some Thera Flu in a cup of hot water. After the Sq hit I felt better and went out to my meeting. Still kind of shaky, my jaw shakes, balance way off, like I am being held and slowly flipped over and back.
Prozac/Birth Control 9 years. Pot 6/09 to 3/11. Female Problems. Short trials: Paxil, Celexa, Lexipro, Wellbutrin, Xanax, Ativan. CURRENTLY Lamictal from 10/11. Seroquel from 12/11. Remiron from 12/11: 15-30-45-30-15-to 7.5 7/2012, to 3.75 4/1/13. 5/18 3.75/2. Diagnosis Now: Complex PTSD. Regular Acupuncture/EMDR/therapy/yoga class. PERFECT RESIGNATION GIVES THE DEEPEST JOY OF ALL. ACCEPT IT AS YOUR SOLE RESOURCE. -ANANADAMAYI MA
The Inner Light - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4n8DQknrOOc
intermittent creepy crawlies, like pin pricks under my skin, have to scratch or the whole muscle or limb will jerk
Prozac/Birth Control 9 years. Pot 6/09 to 3/11. Female Problems. Short trials: Paxil, Celexa, Lexipro, Wellbutrin, Xanax, Ativan. CURRENTLY Lamictal from 10/11. Seroquel from 12/11. Remiron from 12/11: 15-30-45-30-15-to 7.5 7/2012, to 3.75 4/1/13. 5/18 3.75/2. Diagnosis Now: Complex PTSD. Regular Acupuncture/EMDR/therapy/yoga class. PERFECT RESIGNATION GIVES THE DEEPEST JOY OF ALL. ACCEPT IT AS YOUR SOLE RESOURCE. -ANANADAMAYI MA
The Inner Light - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4n8DQknrOOc
day #5, still good for the most part, mood a little lower, some sadness, and around mid afternoon the all over headache from shoulders up to skull starts, a low buzz like a lawn mower in the background, constant, not debilitating, just there. more feelings like I am falling through space, ground is moving away underneath me, but it's okay, not worrying me, I know it's an illusion. wanting to do some writing but not able to concentrate on it. wanted to stay home to do so, ended up going out to a meeting so as not to be alone all day. still reading Farber book, ordered Toxic Psychiatry from library by Peter Breggin, sat in sun in my garden for a couple of hours. I am so grateful for my garden. And for this forum.
Prozac/Birth Control 9 years. Pot 6/09 to 3/11. Female Problems. Short trials: Paxil, Celexa, Lexipro, Wellbutrin, Xanax, Ativan. CURRENTLY Lamictal from 10/11. Seroquel from 12/11. Remiron from 12/11: 15-30-45-30-15-to 7.5 7/2012, to 3.75 4/1/13. 5/18 3.75/2. Diagnosis Now: Complex PTSD. Regular Acupuncture/EMDR/therapy/yoga class. PERFECT RESIGNATION GIVES THE DEEPEST JOY OF ALL. ACCEPT IT AS YOUR SOLE RESOURCE. -ANANADAMAYI MA
The Inner Light - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4n8DQknrOOc
Friday morning of Day #6 (& Wednesday Day #4 I celebrated my 18 month birthday free of (illegal) drugs & alcohol)
intermittent sharp stabbing pains in my torso, various parts, a few times a day. straighten up my posture, massage it, breathe through it
Prozac/Birth Control 9 years. Pot 6/09 to 3/11. Female Problems. Short trials: Paxil, Celexa, Lexipro, Wellbutrin, Xanax, Ativan. CURRENTLY Lamictal from 10/11. Seroquel from 12/11. Remiron from 12/11: 15-30-45-30-15-to 7.5 7/2012, to 3.75 4/1/13. 5/18 3.75/2. Diagnosis Now: Complex PTSD. Regular Acupuncture/EMDR/therapy/yoga class. PERFECT RESIGNATION GIVES THE DEEPEST JOY OF ALL. ACCEPT IT AS YOUR SOLE RESOURCE. -ANANADAMAYI MA
The Inner Light - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4n8DQknrOOc
Mar/2009 (diacepam+nortriptilina).Aprl-2010 (sulpiride+diacepam). May-2010:Tranxene 20 mg+SEROXAT 20mg
TAPER BENZO:Apr-2011 20-10mg.; Sep-Nov -2011 taper 10 a 0mg. BENZO FREE 06/11/2011
TAPER SEROXAT: jul-ago-11: de 20 a 10 mg; Dic-11/jan-10-5mg;Apr-sep-12 5-0mg . SEROXAT FREE: 15/09/2012
Internal tremor, brain fog, memory, lack of concentration, anxiety. Problem original: Stress
Big congratulations on your 18 months, Ruby! That’s fabulous!
Meds free since June 2005.
"An initiation into shamanic healing means a devaluation of all values, an overturning of the profane world, a peeling away of inveterate handed-down notions of the world, liberation from everything preconceived. For that reason, shamanism is closely connected with suffering. One must suffer the disintegration of one's own system of thought in order to perceive a new world in the higher space."
-- Holger Kalweit