Sure hope i do feel better sooner than i think i will. need to bad.

thank you for the compliments. however all i do is beat myself up for everything i have not done or did that has led me to this situation. mad at self from any angle that can think of. but this is how i always treat myself. i need to think better about myself but very very hard.

no matter what i feel horrendous at this point and need to feel better asap.