Thank you everyone, i have decided to reinstate due to severe suicidality and incapacitation. Now problem is my insurance changed so government insurance does not cover my old ssti which i beleive is what i need. Have felt horrible since got off ssri may 1 2012. Plus i dont beleive i ever needed lamictal or that it helped me and no doctors understand why i was ever put on it either. The seroquel i now know kept me quite debilitated for years so i dont want to go back to that. Whatever. Anyway the doctor recommends celexa generic since effexor not covered. Any thoughts. Plus she recommends trazadone for sleep instead of seroquel if i need it. She wants me to start on 20mg celexa. And 50 trazaxdone. I know i went off too fast. I am totally dying, drowning. I tell self should touh it out but even u guys say not to so i am going to listen. My life was pretty bad before reduced and the went broke after got rid of ssri. So i should take some drugs.