Oh, Nancys no, do not call yourself stupid, do not blame yourself, you are not responsible for what happened. Probably you did not have capacity to take charge of your life and / or make decisions. Now you have the knowledge you did not have. Anyway, as someone said it is necessary for a family member or friend accompany you on this trip (WD). No need to know about symptoms WD, only need your presence. Nothing more, everything else you have to do.
The adventure Seroxat / benzo WD is always a personal adventure and solitude. I have a stable family (great husband and 2 children), and I felt a deep loneliness, introspection, I knew I wanted to run away but there was nowhere to hide in the world (he was running away from me).
As Sheila says learn other things, a change of values. Open to other worlds, spirituality. All this brought many positive changes in my environment, husband, children (despite my situation WD).
Courage and a big hug
