You will heal Iggy! I was watching a video that this guy posted about his Regalan and Benzo experience.... He was put on it b/c of heart burn and had a horrible adverse reaction (he became sick like us) then some sort of weird w/d from the benzos they gave him to counter that. Anyway, the point is he was saying that during his "recovery time" it was like his brain would not allow him to think anything would ever be ok again. This guy recovered and even did a video on family support for people during this time. Strange how with these adverse reactions and/or WD feels like it is straight up hopeless... but that's not true. There is hope and you will one day be healed.