Wow....as Sheila has said, I am humbled too. I hope I can have empathy one day. In reality, it's exhausting to be raging all the time. My shrink isn't suffering so why should I waste the brain cells? (pardon the pun) Maybe I should try and have empathy for my family who have no clue. The hurt has been tremendous. My uncle who lives far away doesn't judge me. I think he gets it. I just wish he was closer instead of the others. But, the one family member who is supportive makes up for so many things. I am grateful. I try not to lean on her too much tho. She is suffering thru all of this too. Thanks Annie for opening my eyes. People really don't get it unless they've been there. I am learning so much here. <thank you>