Thank you for the positive perspective. Today I begin conscious transition to positive perspective. I am scripted to be the whistle blower, but for my recovery I must let the lies lie for awhile and believe in myself and those who support me. (this is a conscious decision but i probably can't quit railing against Big Pharma cold turkey!)
Wow, annie, that sounds like a great conscious choice. Free will in action! You might allow yourself some of what's familiar and has worked for you in the past and has real value -- the whistle blowing -- but then allow yourself to shift your emphasis somewhat, as you are proposing.
Meds free since June 2005.
"An initiation into shamanic healing means a devaluation of all values, an overturning of the profane world, a peeling away of inveterate handed-down notions of the world, liberation from everything preconceived. For that reason, shamanism is closely connected with suffering. One must suffer the disintegration of one's own system of thought in order to perceive a new world in the higher space."
-- Holger Kalweit