Humble Request for Prayers and Healing/Protective Energy

[Samsara]

Oh Sheila........

Re: Your last post........How Beautiful! This has moved me to tears. Thank you so much for being so sweet and thoughtful. I will focus on the thought and allow myself to be open to the healing powers you have sent and mentioned. The picture itself is very therapeutic! Thank You!

Wish I would have seen this yesterday but I haven't been on-line but nonetheless, I believe your prayers and intentions helped because today my hosp. pre-op (although very taxing) went a bit better than I expected and the Anesthesiologist was absolutely wonderful. I"m so glad I spoke to him since, I allowed me to feel more comfortable with my decision to utilize a "regional anesthetic" rather than general. I was reassured by him that the regional block (anesthetic) does not activate the CNS.

I told him that despite my severe WD induced sensitivities that I have been able to do okay with dental anesthetic (without epinephrine) although I suspect a spinal block would likely require a higher dose.

I already knew that the same type of anesthetic is used for regional blocks (spinals and epidurals) however, I did NOT know that they use LESS anesthetic for such procedures than what a dentist may use. I was very surprised to find this out today since, I expected it to be the opposite.

I'm sharing this as an FYI. It's important information to know and can allow those in WD to go for certain surgical procedures without setting off their CNS in a huge way.

Hope this is indeed the case. I"ll soon find out.

I'm losing mental and physical strength here so I better sign out for now. Please take good care!

Peace and Healing,






Samsara

[Samsara]

Oh my goodness Dear People..................I'm VERY MOVED by all of your efforts and I truly feel the sincerity of your compassion towards me. There are no words adequate to express how deeply this means to me.

Thank you with all my heart. I just wanted to take a few moments to acknowledge all of your posts but I can't write much ATM. It really pains me not to be able to fully express to each of you just how meaningful your efforts and kindness mean to me.

I'm in tears as I type this out ..............tears of utter gratitude to be the recipient of such kindness.

This week has been quite stressful and today was my 3 hour hospital pre-op app't where I had to have blood work done, meet with anesthesiologist, nurse etc. It was very taxing and this is why I cannot write much.

My surgery is scheduled on Wednesday (Oct 31st). I hope I can write a bit prior to this. BTW, I'm not too afraid of the surgery itself. Rather, I'm more afraid of the results that come back from the biopsies etc. This is my biggest fear that is plaguing me in a horrible, very horrible way. It's mentally torturous but I'm doing all I can to try to keep the severe ruminations in check but as we all know, once a fear gets planted it takes on a life of it's own and the best one can do is to counteract as much as possible.

In the meantime, please know that you are all in my daily prayers (multiple times per day) as well as the Reiki healing. My repeated intentions is to send healing energy and to ask the "source" to speed recovery to each of you. You all have suffered so long and deserve freedom!

Peace, Healing, Light and Love,


Samsara

[Cosette123]

Dear Samsara I just read your posts and I am very moved...I send you healing energy and prayers.I should like to write more but I have real difficulties to concentrate. Nevertheless you must know that I think of you. You are not alone:we are with you!

[Luc]

Dear Sam, I was so relieved to read that the appointment with the anesthesiologist went so well, and that you will have a regional block, and, what is also very good news - that they use it in such low amounts! Please, do know that we are all here with you and all the time, sending the Most Powerful Healing and Positive Energy That There Is. You are *incredibly* brave.

[Sheila]

That is so great that you like the anesthesiologist! What a difference that makes to like and trust a healer one is working with!

And that's very interesting about how they use less anesthetic for a spinal block than for dentistry! Hunh! Who would have thought that?

You did great with your pre-op appointment!

Ah, suspense. Suspense is a challenging feeling at the best of times, but, in w/d, oh boy. I can't even tolerate someone's rhetorical style if they're telling me a run-of-the-mill anecdote, and don't get to the punchline within one minute!

Shea Carney of pp fame is in the zeitgeist right now, and I will never forget how evocatively she described being unable to tolerate suspense. If she had to do anything at all the next day -- even go to Disneyland, which she had grown up doing and loved to do -- she didn't sleep a wink the night before.

Can you watch movies or read novels? That's about the only thing that distracts me when the suspense is at its worst.

The good thing is that time is going faster and faster. Don't you find? So, the time between now and next Wednesday, and then between Wednesday and results *will* pass. That's about the only thing good we can say about it.

I know you know this, but try to replace every worried thought with positive intention, as much as you can. Or, do that old trick of letting yourself worry full force for 10 minutes, and then push yourself to do something else for 10 minutes.

Thank you so much for your all your prayers and Reiki. We all really appreciate it!

We will keep the positive intention up!

Boy, we're all impressive, aren't we?!

[Samsara]

I can only write a few words but wanted to express my sincere thank you for ALL the responses.

I sincerely thank each and every one of you for writing to me and being so compassionate. I feel incredibly rude for not being able to write more to share more of my feelings about what each of you has written to me.

my mind is not working well and I can hardly construct a sentence so I better post this.


Sacred Healing to All of You!!




Sincere Thanks,


Samsara

[Junior]

Oh Samsara. I've only just read this. There I was on October 20, joyfully having loads of people over for my 50th birthday - and there you were suffering in indescribable ways. I'm so so sorry that a person as beautiful as you is going through this hell. As if your w/d hasn't caused enough suffering, and now this.

I wonder if you realise just how strong you are. Look how far you have already come. Look at how you continue to survive each day. One day you will write a book and help so so many. You are in inspiration.

Hang in there. You WILL get through this. You WILL!

[Luc]

Dear Sam, we are here all the time...

[Samsara]

Oh Samsara. I've only just read this. There I was on October 20, joyfully having loads of people over for my 50th birthday - and there you were suffering in indescribable ways. I'm so so sorry that a person as beautiful as you is going through this hell. As if your w/d hasn't caused enough suffering, and now this.

I wonder if you realise just how strong you are. Look how far you have already come. Look at how you continue to survive each day. One day you will write a book and help so so many. You are in inspiration.

Hang in there. You WILL get through this. You WILL!

Junior,

Thank you for this lovely post! It was moving to read your words to me. I don't feel like an inspiration but I do hope that I can someday use my experiences to help others.

Thank you for your confidence in me. I don't feel very confident at this time.

Happy Birthday to You. So glad to hear you had loads of fun. Many more to you Junior!


Samsara

[Sheila]

Now, try not to worry about not writing more right now. Nobody thinks you're rude! Everybody is focused on this turning into a positive group experience -- with great outcomes for you, and for everyone involved.

By starting this thread, you set in motion an opportunity for us all to grow, become closer, help each other. It has been a win-win for everyone.