Humble Request for Prayers and Healing/Protective Energy

[Sheila]

We're still praying and asking the trees to send their energy.

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[deroxat-victim]

my prayers to you Sam

[Luc]

We are here all the time, Sam...

[Samsara]

Oh, Sheila, Luc, Seroxat, Stan....

your recent messages have made me burst into tears. Thank you for being so incredibly supportive and caring. I truly feel the compassion within your posts.

Things are incredibly difficult here which makes it very hard for me to think most days since, my mind is preoccupied on trying to survive not to mention, I'm suffering from severe derealization and feeling very traumatized. I"m truly in emotional, psychological and physical survival mode. I can hardly concentrate on anything.

I'm bedridden for most of the day as well. Fear, anxiety, over-sensitization with earplugs to block out noise. I had to bring the earplugs to the hospital as well which only muffled out sounds but it at least helped a tiny bit.

Blessings to each of you and continued healing and full recovery WILL BE YOURS TO OWN in the near future!

Again, thank you for being so kind and so generous towards me. I'm very moved by it all!


Samsara

[Samsara]

Sheila........

the visuals (Trees) really have a profound impact. Thank you! It has helped me snap my mind out fear for a few minutes.


Samsara

[Samsara]

Sounds like you're doing a really good job of being compassionate to yourself and staying with the feelings. You know these are probably the two things that cause the most movement, healing, and growth in the long run.

I know (just vaguely) that you've already been through some descent experiences in your life, including during this emergence from iatrogenic poly-drugging, so I'm much struck that you say this is by far the deepest plunge ever. You know the Hero's Journey -- big, big rewards come to heroines who go through the deepest descents. If anyone can do it, you can.

Sending protection....right....now!

Oh Sheila..........

I so wish I could respond more fully to "deepest plunge ever" but I'm too weak to so. There is so much to share on the subject though.

Thank you for all you have written and for the protective energy.

Healing Energy to You!

Samsara

[Samsara]

Now, try not to worry about not writing more right now. Nobody thinks you're rude! Everybody is focused on this turning into a positive group experience -- with great outcomes for you, and for everyone involved.

By starting this thread, you set in motion an opportunity for us all to grow, become closer, help each other. It has been a win-win for everyone.

Thank you so much for your understanding. All of your words reflect a great generosity and I thank you!



Samsara

[Samsara]

Ah, Samsara, I’m so glad you posted. This is a beautiful post you wrote, and some day we will look back on it, and shake our heads at what we’ve gone through, and raise a toast to how well life has turned around.

You are going to be OK, Samsara. I feel it. You are going to get through this. It will be behind you. You will heal from everything going on with your poor body and mind right now. You are a person who is very ambitious about healing, about becoming your true self, about fulfilling your destiny. I most certainly wish it didn’t have to be such a horrendous path, but I know you will persevere through it *and* turn it into gold.

You are a very powerful person. You have a lot of wisdom. You have great values. You have all those resources even now, even though you understandably feel weak. Remember, both things are true at the same time -- the vulnerability and the strength. They're intertwined.

You must be exhausted from having to constantly work with the neuro-amplified fears and the real decisions and conversations and other actions you have to take right now.

It seems like a really good decision to forgo the general anesthesia.

What a bind you’re in – to want company desperately, but to be unable to tolerate it. You did so great to start this thread. Please keep updating us or asking for what you would like. Remember, we are all more connected than most of us have been raised to understand. We are never really alone. All you have to do is think of one of us, and we will be connected through time and space. I have prayed for you since you’ve been away. And I knew you were praying for me. And I know Barbara has prayed for you.

We will definitely increase our prayers. I ask that everyone who reads this thread say some prayers right in the moment for Samsara. There is some research and anecdotal information to suggest that group intention is even more powerful than individual intention. So, let’s form a group intention / prayer project here now.

Samsara, is there anyone who could go with you to any of these appointments? Even an ex-healer of any kind, or an ex-colleague, or a neighbor?

Sheila..........

Thank you so much for this fantastic post. You put so much effort and heart into writing and you so deserve to have your posts acknowledged. I just wish I could respond more fully and in a more timely fashion. I keep putting off responding to your posts .....saving it for days when I have a greater degree of cognition since, there are so many things I'd love to respond to however, it seems as if I"m not capable of engaging in the depth that I so wish I could.

Please know that your efforts, wisdom and knowledge are very much appreciated.

Thank you for all the kind words you wrote about me.

Samsara

[Samsara]

By synchro, I was re-reading a blog post of mine preparatory to working on a new blog post, and I stumbled across a great quote from Samsara which might be helpful for Samsara right now –


A friend of mine recently wrote: “I believe that our greatest discoveries are usually never in the obvious range but rather, are come upon, unexpectedly..... .......unanticipated and when they do reveal, it is a life altering experience….As you know, our greatest struggles push us into places we would never go otherwise and we usually enter those places with great fear which takes great courage but usually results in great clarity, discovering parts of ourself that we never knew existed. Great empowerment comes from such and thus, greater freedom from the past as well as a great respect and love for oneself and towards others.”


http://neuroscienceandpsi.blogspot.c...rtium-non.html

Sheila........

once again, I wanted to save this post for when I was feeling more energetic but I've waited far too long and so, I really need to thank you today (without writing as much as what I would like).

I am flattered that someone so intelligent has chosen to quote "me" but I'm impressed by your honour in giving credit to my writing. Many people would not be so generous.

I really did need to read my own words. As you know, when it the depths of the descent we cannot see ahead since, we are lost, trying to find our way through the trauma and fear.

I better stop thinking and writing. I'm pushing myself beyond my limit and need to get off-line. I was only going to respond to a few posts but I truly wanted to acknowledge ALL the efforts you put forth.

I really hope I can check out your blog sometime soon. I"m so happy to see that you keep adding to it. This is such a rewarding step in your recovery and I'm impressed! Keep it up!

Samsara

[Samsara]

We are holding you in our arms, Dear Sam. We are with you all the time - thinking, praying, sending the Most Powerful Energy Ever...

And, it's the other way round - it's us that will never be able to pay *you* back the now years of incredible help, advice and the most compassionate and loving heart you has always given to so many of those who suffered... Say strong, Our Friend... We are here, or rather *there* with you. Every second.

Thank you once again for this post Luc. I read it over and over again ................to help me feel safe.

I also thank you for your many posts of genuine compassionate energy.

It makes me feel less alone. I so want to support others and I feel so deprived when I cannot engage in the ways in which I wish. It so very much a part of who I am and when I can't support others I feel as if a huge chunk of me has died off. Like I"m just existing for myself and it's not a good feeling at all.

Anyway, bless you for being so generous and kind with your support!

Okay, I really need to sign-off (I'm feeling too sickish) even though I do not want to.

Samsara