annie -- It sounds like you have been through a lot, and learned a lot, and have good reason to distrust the medical establishment, and question "expertise" and authority.
I’m curious what differences you have observed among the SSRIs in terms of their withdrawal challenges. That's very interesting to me.
That’s great you have insight about your parents misleading you about yourself. I’m sorry that happened. As you heal, you will turn that hardship into a strength, and be very clear about what you know, and maybe help others to trust themselves more.
