40 months off Paxil

[Luc]

Sounds like a very interesting project, Cosette!

[Luc]

The "poem video" is already on our Youtube channel. Here's the link; http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5viEk-htgkc Take care! :)

[Cosette123]

Great video,Luc!
I forgot to mention that Baudelaire was not only deeply depressive but poly-drugged with alcohol and opium.

[Sheila]

Wow, that is *very* interesting, Françoise! Hah! The picture is even more complete now as to why that poem fit AD w/d so well.

[Cosette123]

Baudelaire is also known for his wonderful translations of the poems and texts of the great american author Edgar Poe.

[Sheila]

Hunh, that’s interesting, too. Poe was another suffering soul. I went through a Poe stage as a teen – read all his work.

[Luc]

I LOVED POE too. I hope to get back to reading him as soon as possible.

[Sheila]

Ha! Can you imagine what he would have written if he'd been in psych med w/d?! Ye gods! What horrors would have flowed from his pen?!

[Cosette123]

Update at 53 months off:
At the early stage of my w/d I could not imagine it will last so long...But months passed, then years...
- Now I cannot say that I am very wellbecause of these neurological symptomes(Ataxia, pseudo-Parkinson...) which make me disabled and unable to walk outside alone.
I suffer morally from this lack of autonomy and I am often afraid of my future. I feel like somebody who has had a serious illness which made him more vulnerable...
I still have pain in my back or my knees BUT:
- Many things have improved: I am feeling less sad, less anxious. The panic attacks and the agoraphobia have gone away. I like driving my car like before the w/d. I like to see my friends.
I have no more windows or waves because the improvements are more linear.
And something strange has happened: since chilhood, I had beautiful thick hair. During my w/d, they become thinner and thinner and I lost a lot of hair...But now my hair are growing again!

I think(I do hope) that the hell is behind me even if I still have a long way to go.

[Luc]

Update at 53 months off:
At the early stage of my w/d I could not imagine it will last so long...But months passed, then years...
- Now I cannot say that I am very wellbecause of these neurological symptomes(Ataxia, pseudo-Parkinson...) which make me disabled and unable to walk outside alone.
I suffer morally from this lack of autonomy and I am often afraid of my future. I feel like somebody who has had a serious illness which made him more vulnerable...
I still have pain in my back or my knees BUT:
- Many things have improved: I am feeling less sad, less anxious. The panic attacks and the agoraphobia have gone away. I like driving my car like before the w/d. I like to see my friends.
I have no more windows or waves because the improvements are more linear.
And something strange has happened: since chilhood, I had beautiful thick hair. During my w/d, they become thinner and thinner and I lost a lot of hair...But now my hair are growing again!

So so great to hear about those improvements, Cosette! It's been a long way already, hasn't it? But it *is* getting better. Yes, definititely - for many, at some point, it gets more linear and less cyclical. Remember yourself about all those improvements, b/c the extreme snailiness of the entire process may trick you into thinking that the progress isn't as profound as it is. How is your agoraphobia these days?