What I meant by mild rewards was you getting to look forward to 1 - 2 weeks of feeling neutral or with only mild symptoms. Your w/d symptoms are so grueling, that my thinking was that it would be good for you physically and emotionally to know that you get 1 - 2 weeks off from the grueling suffering before you do the next taper.
It sounds like there is not much question about the first 8 - 9 weeks. You have to wait that long before your next taper. The question is -- do you just take the 10th and 11th week as your mild reward, or do you try adding another week or two to see if you get better quality of life, a mini-vacation, before you do the next drop.
I am not trying to persuade you in any way. I genuinely don't feel like I know the answer. It's just an optionfor you to consider. Of course I think we want to get you off this stuff. And if you're never going to feel well in the taper, then maybe you should just soldier on. But, if it were possible for you to build in mini-vacations, would another week or two per drop be such a bad thing, or might it lighten your load? I don't know.
In answer to your other question, yes, absolutely, people can get worse as they get farther from the drop.
Anyway, you are doing a yeoman's job. I really admire you. And this *will* pay off for you. You'll live a much longer, happier, healthier life because you got off this poison.
<--- gD on her marathon