Stan makes an important point, sterre – it is very possible that you will take your last dose, and have only minor, brief w/d symptoms! Everyone is different and many people have no problems.
Stan makes an important point, sterre – it is very possible that you will take your last dose, and have only minor, brief w/d symptoms! Everyone is different and many people have no problems.
Meds free since June 2005.
"An initiation into shamanic healing means a devaluation of all values, an overturning of the profane world, a peeling away of inveterate handed-down notions of the world, liberation from everything preconceived. For that reason, shamanism is closely connected with suffering. One must suffer the disintegration of one's own system of thought in order to perceive a new world in the higher space."
-- Holger Kalweit
Three days ago I took my last dose....
And for now I am feeling okay! I upped the fish oil, and hope that it protects me from any severe withdrawal symptoms.
I have felt a bit "metallic"in my head, and the metallic taste in my mouth, some headache, hard to sit still and relax, and fevirsch symptoms, but for the rest I am feeling okay.
Today I feel a bit low and sad. I feel overly sensitive again, and teary, but I geuss that is due to the fact that my body/emotions have to adjust to being med free.
I feel increbly proud to have come this far, after 16 years of being on AD's! And weaning of of them without any support, before I found this forum!
Wow, I am med free!!!! I can hardly believe it!
I found out that the AD's I was taking for so long have a black box warning after the shooting incident on Columbine. The producer of the meds later returend the stuff on the market under another name ( Luvox). It is known for the high rate of violence impulses as a side effect?
I have noticed these impulses in myself, and got very scared of them, but never assumed them to be a side effect from the AD's. What a poisoniuos drug!
So great to hear you've completed your taper, Sterre! And it all after 16 long years on the drugs. Fantastic accomplishement. Be patient, you will heal. As for the "violent impulses" connected with taking SSRIs, those are, beyond any doubt, one of the very common side-effects.
Don't worry about worse days you may still experience - they are a part and parcel of the WD process, but, on average, it will keep improving! Please, keep us updated on your progress.
Keep walking. Just keep walking.
Thanks Luc, I will!
I find it hard to get to terms with the anger I feel now regarding the medication and the denial of proffesionals about the side effects.
1,5 year ago, I quit my AD's cold turkey, I was still in therapy with a weekly visit to my psychiatrist, back then.
Besides all the physical symptoms, I was fgeeling well for 6 weeks, and then started to have severe symptoms. ( wich I now know where WD symptoms)
One of the symptoms that occured then, wich I never had before, was that I felt strong and sudden violent impulses.
It scared the hell out of me...and raised a lot of panic attacks.( and guilt and shame and....)
I told this to my psychiatrist, and she immediatly advised me to go back on the meds, wich I did.
I did ask her if it could be possible that it was some kind of WD symptom, but she firmly denied it and left me feeling crazy and insecur about my mental healt.
I am so angry at her, for making me believe that it this sudden violent impulse, was something inside of me that was not okay.
I am so angry after reading about the black box warning.
The psychiatrist and me, had a verbal agrument because she beleived I attacked her knowledge about medication. I became very insecure because of that.
How is it possible that she didnt know about the black box warning and the WD symptoms? I just dont understand?
This is exactly what I went through many times and probably many of us did. We thought we could believe the so-calld "experts" because above all they wear the white coats and had done a years=long study about these illnesses and medicines. While in fact, they get most of their "knowledge" from the drug companies who are only interested in money.
And indeed is the most saddest and infuriasting thing that when confronting them with their completelack of knowledge, instead of making their apologies and giving you the support you need after their mistakes, they just blame you for "being stubborn" and "not listening to them".
They should be ashamed of themselves but I think that deep inside tey do know that these drugs cure nothing and their whole medical "specialism" is based on lies and nonsense. They can only keep intact their own faul system because this is the base of their living.
But it remains a bloody bloody shame that this is possible in the Western "civilized" world.
Recovering from the ravages of withdrawal after 5 years on Paxil/Seroxat, originally prescribed for stress and, looking backward, PTSS.
Though it is hardly possible to get something positive from the utter hell of repeated c/t's and protracted w/d, all of this unnecessary, I still believe in the possiblity to emerge from this as a healed, wiser human being.
All we need is just a little patience - Guns N' Roses
I want to thanks this forum so much for its support!
I will keep a regular update about my emotional and psychical state after the meds. Maybe this will turn out to be a succes story huh? ;-)
Congratulations on your fantastic achievement, sterre!
You are now one of the "lucky ones" who saw the truth of these drugs and escaped. So many have not been so lucky yet.
This iatrogenic ordeal will shape you in ways we cannot even guess yet. You will integrate the experiences into whatever you decide to do with your life next, and the world will benefit from your hard-won knowledge and wisdom.
Meds free since June 2005.
"An initiation into shamanic healing means a devaluation of all values, an overturning of the profane world, a peeling away of inveterate handed-down notions of the world, liberation from everything preconceived. For that reason, shamanism is closely connected with suffering. One must suffer the disintegration of one's own system of thought in order to perceive a new world in the higher space."
-- Holger Kalweit
That precisely what happened to me too, and to many, if not most folks, here. Some doctors are totally ignorant, some are in denial, and still others won't care. Here's the imaginary ----> "thank god, there's the Internet" emoticon. We won't stop spreading the word about those drugs.Originally Posted by sterre
Keep walking. Just keep walking.
I always assumed that when you are a psychiatrist you read up about your proffesion ( medication), but I geuss I was naive in that way.
When I wrote my post this morning I was feeling well, but now a few hours later WD kicks in hard....
I have been glued to my chair behind this computer for a few hours now, unable to get moving and do something. I feel somewhat "slowmotion- esque"or something. There is a buzz in my ear and my head feels clotted with cotton. I feel heavy and strange, unable to get moving and to styart my daily chores.
WD, WD, WD....I tought I escaped it this time...sigh.
Med free from 29 april 2012! Finally after 16 years of AD's, benzo's and sleeping pills.
This still sounds like cold-turkey like WWD symptoms, although your last dose was very low according to the "official standards" but we know already that these have no value for us.
I would really consider to get back to your last dose and taper further with the 1-% rule, if necessary until you are a microscopic low dose! It appears that the last dose is still "therapeutic" in the sense of preventing the kick in of WD so probably too high to quit from.
Recovering from the ravages of withdrawal after 5 years on Paxil/Seroxat, originally prescribed for stress and, looking backward, PTSS.
Though it is hardly possible to get something positive from the utter hell of repeated c/t's and protracted w/d, all of this unnecessary, I still believe in the possiblity to emerge from this as a healed, wiser human being.
All we need is just a little patience - Guns N' Roses
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