With the confusion episodees, it sounds like there are potentially two ways in – doing something about the worry and doing something about the back muscles tensing.
And it seems like it might help to just hold in mind that this is neurological, psychological, *and* teleological / cosmic.
Here’s one thought -- When the confusion or confusion prodrome start, have you tried doing something that you really enjoy but that is not physical or verbal? Like lying down listening to music, or sitting somewhere looking at a nice vista? I’m trying to borrow from Laura Bruno’s idea that certain insurmountable symptoms are a call to listen to some inner voice tell you something. What if we’re misinterpreting the confusion, and it is actually insight or intuition that you are pushing away because you haven’t been supported in recognizing it?
You were slightly drawn to the residual field effect thing, so I’m paying attention to that. If the confusion comes, and it’s not a good idea to leave the house, you could immerse yourself in cycling magazines or movies. (You’ve seen “Breaking Away,” right? I love that movie.) Or you could increase your exposure to a good field effect by sitting in a bike shop, bike club, or watching in a place where people bike. Then, *really* pay attention to what comes to mind. You already had a lot of insight and intuition before this decent experience, and you have more and more coming up now.
IOW, maybe try broadening your focus of attention in a passive, receptive way, while you use something you enjoy to keep the space propped open and to ward off the anxious thought content. Also, spin a plate on the end of a stick from your forehead at the same time….
Dennis Christopher in “Breaking Away,” 1979