I am sorry to post this way, but I am feeling absolutely overwhelmed by this tragic event in my life.
I have such a terrible sense of loss, dispair and fear, that I can't take it anymore.
I have lost everything that has meaning for me or to anyone: I have lost my sleep, my sexuality is very impaired, I am a singer and I've lost my voice...I have money problems, there is no joy in my life, but anxiety,fear and profound sadness.
This is no life; at least not for me.And the idea that this nightmare will last for years is just to much.
I don't want to die, but I don't want to "live" like this.I don't.
I am a 60 yrs old man, my life hasn't been good because of emotional problems, and now this...I think about death 24/7
I am sorry
