Tonight is the first night in ages I flipped out and had a severe crying spell. It was over anhedonia and the fact that no matter what I try to do for it, nothing changes it and there is seemingly no cure. It tends to be over that and loneliness. When I have one of these, it is impossible to talk to me...at all. I become really, horribly stubborn. I just wish I could make others see how it feels. Is this a sign of healing or not? :(
It's gonna cure itself, theelt. I wrote you a suggestion on your journal thread. Sending you a hug!
Meds free since June 2005.
"An initiation into shamanic healing means a devaluation of all values, an overturning of the profane world, a peeling away of inveterate handed-down notions of the world, liberation from everything preconceived. For that reason, shamanism is closely connected with suffering. One must suffer the disintegration of one's own system of thought in order to perceive a new world in the higher space."
-- Holger Kalweit
Hugs to you, Shelia. :)
Hi baby girl, its totally normal, also you ahve a bucket full of teenage hormones rushing around to add to things, give it a couple of months and all this will be over for you, no doubt at all...crying can be good, and it also shows that your emotions are still there, alot of people with severe anhedonia cannot cry, or feel sadness etc, so yes, its a good sign that you still have those emotions, this is simply surface damage, and will heal really fast. if it helps to cry then cry, its a healthy thing to do.
you have big hugs from me too. xxx
Put on citalopram July 2009 during a physical illness - didnt need it. 40mg
went down to 20mg July 2010 CT in Jan 2012 - 2.5 years on.
Tried to restart July 2012 due to 1 panic attack (never had one before - start of CT W/D) - adverse reaction
Down to 1.5mg from the failed RI
Now at 0.48 and trying to stabalize - been 6 weeks
now have SEVERE anxiety, akathsia, feel like Im on acid 24/7 depression, D/P, signed off work. Scared of everything..please God let me heal from this
Hugs to everyone... :). I thought of that after crying..most severe anhedonics can't cry. At least I can cry over things.
Anhedonia is one of the key symptoms of major depression. I remember being in that state once, without recognising it because it was masked by anxiety, and for the first time ever - I cried but felt no better afterwards. Was that what it was like for you?
Aropax (Paxil). Currently at 13mg and holding.
Added Endep (amitrypline) 12.5 for sleep - 11 July 2013
"There are things that are known and things that are unknown; in between are doors." - Anonymous
Junior- pretty much. I wonder if I was headed for anhedonia anyways due to severe anxiety and maybe the medicine made that happen faster.
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