believing in recovery

[Luc]

In 2005, I picked up a box and I felt a very quick sharp pain on my lower back. 30 minutes later, I found I could not stand up straight (it hurt!). If I tried and looked in the mirror, I looked like an "S". It appeared my lower right muscle was tight and made things crooked. During this episode, I laid down flat, face up for 2-3 days and the pain went away. The following year, the same thing happened, but it went away as before.

Looks like it is, at some level, physically-reated, ABM. Slipped disc + some nerve compression. It happens when lifting too heavy weights. Did you experience any sciatica at the time? Though, I have no doubt it is worsened by WD (muscle tightness, poor blood circulation, muscle weakened by WD). Here are some ideas of what you can do:

Post 16 in this thread and the links there: http://antidepressantwithdrawal.info...light=fountain

Very very important - when lifting any weights, do it as they advise in the pictures. If you bend your back (so called "cat's back"), you put tremendous pressure on your spine. Changing this alone (and remembering about it *ever time* you lift weights) can make a huge difference.

[Iggy131313]

Luc, how do you keep up your belief in recobery? if I saw some level of improvement I would be able to believe but how do you keep up the belief when things only seem to get worse?

[ABM]

Looks like it is, at some level, physically-reated, ABM. Slipped disc + some nerve compression. It happens when lifting too heavy weights. Did you experience any sciatica at the time? Though, I have no doubt it is worsened by WD (muscle tightness, poor blood circulation, muscle weakened by WD). Here are some ideas of what you can do:

Post 16 in this thread and the links there: http://antidepressantwithdrawal.info...light=fountain

Very very important - when lifting any weights, do it as they advise in the pictures. If you bend your back (so called "cat's back"), you put tremendous pressure on your spine. Changing this alone (and remembering about it *ever time* you lift weights) can make a huge difference.

Hi Luc, I Know that WD made worse the problems but is true that adds disease in some cases. Look at my feet during WD and before.

[Claudius]

I am not Luc, but though I am surely one of the worst cases, I know there is recovery still going on.
And that is not just irrational belief: I will give a short summary of my WD ordeal.

Sept. 2007: Quit Paxil cold turkey from 10 mg
Okt 2007: WD hit suddenly
Jan 2008: WD worsened and had to quit work
End of 2008: Totally desperate, no noticable progress, close to suicide
Rest of 2008 and first half of 2009: total hell, unable to work, study, read, love etc.
June 2009: first window, felt almost great!: Bought a study book and dived in woth great enthusiam. But window ended after 2-3 weeks
End of 2009, start 2010: Started a study about operating systems
March 2010: First two programming tasks: Website development and Java programming, still surfing on the windows but the progression was surely there. Bad wave in summer 2010 lasting for months
2011: First bigger programming project, build the most advanced website in my whole career
2012: First job on a half-year base, very good response from my manager, learned many new things
2013: Dived into smartphone app programming, learning new things again. Feel better equipped for job market than ever
Right now: some nasty residual issues but realsing that more time is needed to fully emerge from hell


So read my journal and see the progress. It is there, albeit slow as a snail but recovery never ends!

[ABM]

I am not Luc, but though I am surely one of the worst cases, I know there is recovery still going on.
And that is not just irrational belief: I will give a short summary of my WD ordeal.

Sept. 2007: Quit Paxil cold turkey from 10 mg
Okt 2007: WD hit suddenly
Jan 2008: WD worsened and had to quit work
End of 2008: Totally desperate, no noticable progress, close to suicide
Rest of 2008 and first half of 2009: total hell, unable to work, study, read, love etc.
June 2009: first window, felt almost great!: Bought a study book and dived in woth great enthusiam. But window ended after 2-3 weeks
End of 2009, start 2010: Started a study about operating systems
March 2010: First two programming tasks: Website development and Java programming, still surfing on the windows but the progression was surely there. Bad wave in summer 2010 lasting for months
2011: First bigger programming project, build the most advanced website in my whole career
2012: First job on a half-year base, very good response from my manager, learned many new things
2013: Dived into smartphone app programming, learning new things again. Feel better equipped for job market than ever
Right now: some nasty residual issues but realsing that more time is needed to fully emerge from hell


So read my journal and see the progress. It is there, albeit slow as a snail but recovery never ends!

Hi Claudius, I think too that recovery is possible but need years ( sorry for no explain more details, my english is bad)

[Iggy131313]

but this AKATHISIA!!!! its the akathisia

[ABM]

but this AKATHISIA!!!! its the akathisia

Sorry Caroline for put another question in your post.

[Iggy131313]

please dont apologise, your foot looks very painful you poor thing

[ABM]

please dont apologise, your foot looks very painful you poor thing

Caroline, now my foot are fine ( very fine), but during my WD ( more 1 year ) I suffered from the use of the AD,and the doctors no said nothing

[stan]

withdrawal attacks muscles very often, i have since muscles back pains, muscles rib cage pains , muscles legs pain, muscles bowels, arms, chest etc as fibromyalgia; with time it is more manageable and less intense and moving places
before tapering, i never had something in back, i even do not know the back exist