as you all know I have a very big problem with this, and for good reason really, what are the real rates of recovery from this? especially with severe symptoms/?? are the poeple who recover in the minority? or do they disapear? or do people just have nothing else to say about being sick for long and stop posting?
the fact is sheila, luc, squirrel, mike, buxy, and many others have not made it, why? and why then should it follow that I can make it?
even when I read a recovery story I think, well all that prooves is that THEY recovered, and I think of keith or mike reading the same thing, finding comfort in it, but it means nothing really apart from the fact that THAT person recovered....
then I try to tell myself that shea, TTGW, Tigerlily may have felt the same as me, and they did recover....but what if their symptoms were not as bad as mine?
Mike says I have to take a leap of faith and live as if I will recover, but how can I? if I didnt have this god awful akathisia then I coud try and live some kind of life, but life is unlivable in this condition, plain and simple, unlivable torture.
If I saw some improvement, just a small amount (preferably in the akathisia department) then I would have more hope, but nothing, no improvement and things are just getting worse all the time.
how do you have faith in recovery? how?
