In a depressed state today. From my PP journal:
"I hate summer. This is probably *the* worst summer I have had. I try to have fun and make friends but no one really gets the inability to feel pleasure or appreciate simple things and I just feel empty inside. I almost want to cry. All I do is argue with my mom, and my ability to enjoy waking up is just gone. I just don't know what to do. Friends live far away, most are in tough situations and then there's me. I hate feeling as alone as I do. Everyday goes slower than the next and I don't know what to do....tears fill my eyes as I write this. I would give just about anything to go back in time and tell myself not to take the pill but if anything, it's far too late. All I can do is sit and wait...and wait....and wait. It's monotonous and honestly causes me to lose hope."
