Sheila, I just don't know, there are so many things in play here plus the fact that I feel so bad all the time it's hard to make sense of it all. I really wanted off the valium but maybe that's a mistake. No my life is not really very stressful except in my imagination. I've quit just about everything I used to do, and my husband and son do try to help but of cource can't understand any of it. Nothing is happening that I couldn't have handled easily before I quit paxil but there's no going back. I do thank you and everyone for encouragement and suggestions but I can't see any future but suffering. How did you make it? How is it possible to endure years of this?