Alex, you have clearly had an epiphany, through your own questioning of your psych med experience. And it has brought you to the IAWP forum where you can get more knowledge for your investigation.

I would like to recommend to you a couple of books:

“Anatomy Of An Epidemic” by Robert Whitaker

“The most important book on psychiatry in a generation......I couldn’t help but draw comparisons to Rachel Carson’s “Silent Spring.”
--Huffington Post

And, “The Emperor’s New Drugs” (Exploding the Antidepressant Myth) by Irving Kirsch, Ph.D.

“The Emperor’s New Drugs absolutely dismantles the case for antidepressants as a pharmacologically effective treatment.” --Psychology Today