I´m having a horrible wave of depression.
My personal life is very complicated; I have no money, no family, I feel terrible lonely and sick.
I´m suicidal.I don´t think any spirit or body can endure this torment.
I´m sorry.
I´m having a horrible wave of depression.
My personal life is very complicated; I have no money, no family, I feel terrible lonely and sick.
I´m suicidal.I don´t think any spirit or body can endure this torment.
I´m sorry.
150mgs Effexor for 4 years 2008-2012 for situational Major Depression. No AD before
Tapered 150-0mgs in 3 months / last dose July 26th/2012 aprox.
Acute W/D first 1-2 months
Protracted W/D since then and slowly recovering.
Main symptoms: Anxiety, Insomnia,Anhedonia.
April 9th- 20th SEVERE DEPRESSION.
11 months off.Slowly improving
I am feeling a little better; it is incredible what mind and body can endure.
If I ever come out of this, NOTHING is going to beat me, NOTHING!
150mgs Effexor for 4 years 2008-2012 for situational Major Depression. No AD before
Tapered 150-0mgs in 3 months / last dose July 26th/2012 aprox.
Acute W/D first 1-2 months
Protracted W/D since then and slowly recovering.
Main symptoms: Anxiety, Insomnia,Anhedonia.
April 9th- 20th SEVERE DEPRESSION.
11 months off.Slowly improving
Hi Alex. You are hurting badly. I am sorry. One thing I have learned about feelings is they DO change. In the meantime I hope you can think or meditate on something that is soothing and positive for you. I don't have too much to say. I just want to encourage you and don't give in to dark thoughts. They do pass.
Joy
Thank you Joy, I´m better now. Getting ready for a difficult nightOriginally Posted by Joy
One more day alive and closer to succes...I hope
150mgs Effexor for 4 years 2008-2012 for situational Major Depression. No AD before
Tapered 150-0mgs in 3 months / last dose July 26th/2012 aprox.
Acute W/D first 1-2 months
Protracted W/D since then and slowly recovering.
Main symptoms: Anxiety, Insomnia,Anhedonia.
April 9th- 20th SEVERE DEPRESSION.
11 months off.Slowly improving
Joy makes an incredibly important point – feelings always change. Even in w/d. Even in other real, hard situations.
And, the feelings strongly determine your memories and your beliefs about your past, present, and future. Just feeling a tiny bit better makes a huge difference in being able to have hope.
Just try to be as kind as you can to yourself when you feel horrible and hopeless, and wait for it to pass.
Sending healing energy....
Meds free since June 2005.
"An initiation into shamanic healing means a devaluation of all values, an overturning of the profane world, a peeling away of inveterate handed-down notions of the world, liberation from everything preconceived. For that reason, shamanism is closely connected with suffering. One must suffer the disintegration of one's own system of thought in order to perceive a new world in the higher space."
-- Holger Kalweit
Hi Alex:
Everything that happens is WD.
At my worst wd, I was sorry because I had family ... I wanted to have no family, no children, no husband. He wanted to flee, leaving the family and live alone. I did not want my children were to have the memory of a disastrous mother.
In WD "brain tricks us"and made strange thoughts.
A big hug
Mar/2009 (diacepam+nortriptilina).Aprl-2010 (sulpiride+diacepam). May-2010:Tranxene 20 mg+SEROXAT 20mg
TAPER BENZO:Apr-2011 20-10mg.; Sep-Nov -2011 taper 10 a 0mg. BENZO FREE 06/11/2011
TAPER SEROXAT: jul-ago-11: de 20 a 10 mg; Dic-11/jan-10-5mg;Apr-sep-12 5-0mg . SEROXAT FREE: 15/09/2012
Internal tremor, brain fog, memory, lack of concentration, anxiety. Problem original: Stress
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