I am in a terryfying wave of depression.
The worst since all this began; I´m suicidal 24/7
I I´m very scared
I am in a terryfying wave of depression.
The worst since all this began; I´m suicidal 24/7
I I´m very scared
150mgs Effexor for 4 years 2008-2012 for situational Major Depression. No AD before
Tapered 150-0mgs in 3 months / last dose July 26th/2012 aprox.
Acute W/D first 1-2 months
Protracted W/D since then and slowly recovering.
Main symptoms: Anxiety, Insomnia,Anhedonia.
April 9th- 20th SEVERE DEPRESSION.
11 months off.Slowly improving
It definitely is a wave. Those always end, Alex. Was there anything that you changed recently? You ate something other than usual, over-exerted yourself physically, etc?
Keep walking. Just keep walking.
No Luc; but it has been one of the most powerful experiences since this nightmare begun.Originally Posted by Luc
I really don´t know how I´ve been able to endure such an extreme sensation of anguish and despair..almost got out of myself.
The best way to describe my situation right now: "dead man walking" an empty shell.
One "good" thing though; it can´t get any worse; I guess...
Is this posible at 8 and a half months off?? yeah, I know...YES.
One philosophycal question: after being in the lowest circle of hell, what´s next??
150mgs Effexor for 4 years 2008-2012 for situational Major Depression. No AD before
Tapered 150-0mgs in 3 months / last dose July 26th/2012 aprox.
Acute W/D first 1-2 months
Protracted W/D since then and slowly recovering.
Main symptoms: Anxiety, Insomnia,Anhedonia.
April 9th- 20th SEVERE DEPRESSION.
11 months off.Slowly improving
how is the healing? even after 8 months or much more?
we have to be worse in a symptome during one day, 10 days, a month or more, before it improves, and in future go less deeper; i experience it every day,
there do rarely exist a linear improving; it is the bad waves people speak about;
we have to be busy with things, eat healthy, and wait it pass; it will not be for ever;
12 years paxil(9 years only 10 mg) - cold turkey(1,5 month) and switch celexa tapered 1 year 20 mg
62 years old - for GAD - 4 years 3 months meds free [since april 2009]
vegetables soup - orange (vit C) - curcuma - some meat or fish
Definitely so - through windows and waves, through better and worse, it keeps improving.
Keep walking. Just keep walking.
at 8 months off, it is often 100% chemical depression, it is much deeper than a natural classic depression; but remember, this depression will clear as quickly as it appeared, i expirienced it
12 years paxil(9 years only 10 mg) - cold turkey(1,5 month) and switch celexa tapered 1 year 20 mg
62 years old - for GAD - 4 years 3 months meds free [since april 2009]
vegetables soup - orange (vit C) - curcuma - some meat or fish
Alex – It just occurred to me that you might be experiencing the depressive wave that often happens to people somewhere in the 5 – 9 month period. I was the most severely depressed then, and the depression was never that bad ever again. We do not know why this is a rather predictable phase, but it is. It will not last.
Meds free since June 2005.
"An initiation into shamanic healing means a devaluation of all values, an overturning of the profane world, a peeling away of inveterate handed-down notions of the world, liberation from everything preconceived. For that reason, shamanism is closely connected with suffering. One must suffer the disintegration of one's own system of thought in order to perceive a new world in the higher space."
-- Holger Kalweit
Thank you Stan, Luc and Sheila, I´m a little better.
150mgs Effexor for 4 years 2008-2012 for situational Major Depression. No AD before
Tapered 150-0mgs in 3 months / last dose July 26th/2012 aprox.
Acute W/D first 1-2 months
Protracted W/D since then and slowly recovering.
Main symptoms: Anxiety, Insomnia,Anhedonia.
April 9th- 20th SEVERE DEPRESSION.
11 months off.Slowly improving
Hi Alex, On a post of Omega 3's you had mentioned you were maybe going to increase to a higher dosage..I am wondering if you did and if going to the higher dosage could have caused a temporary setback in your depression?
Hello Joy, no, I haven´t made any changes at all.
Let me tell you this: after one of the most terryfying, hellish week I´ve had in months, since this ordeal begun, today, I´m having a quite clear window...
This is the bizarre nature of this beast.
150mgs Effexor for 4 years 2008-2012 for situational Major Depression. No AD before
Tapered 150-0mgs in 3 months / last dose July 26th/2012 aprox.
Acute W/D first 1-2 months
Protracted W/D since then and slowly recovering.
Main symptoms: Anxiety, Insomnia,Anhedonia.
April 9th- 20th SEVERE DEPRESSION.
11 months off.Slowly improving
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