So, I am at the one year mark. Right now, I just keep having those hopeless thoughts. This will never get better.
Every time I hear about someone committing suicide ...... that just sends me over the top. I can only think "is that going to be me in a few more years when I just can't hang on any longer?" ... will I even make it that long? A Boy Friend of an acquaintance ended his life the other day and he was known for depression. I don't know a lot of the details, only that he was a "sensitive person". I can honestly say my life was never this horrible before... but now... after the AD it is. Is this the same thing as someone who has depression disorder? I just want this to go away, to survive. Will this really go away on it's own?
I keep worrying will this happen to close family members from being around me. I don't want to bring them down.
I just can't believe all this. One minute life was ok... I was functioning and now... I get so upset (over the top upset) when I hear about people ending their life. So sick, angry, and feel hopeless.
Are people that come through this really ok?