Well....
Here I am, two months and one week later.
Still in withdrawal.
There has been healing I suppose, as they say healing occures regardless of how symptomatic a person is. However I haven't observed any healing yet.
Derealization has me on my knees ALL DAY EVERYDAY, and infact it has raised in its severity.
Depersonalization; I practically feel like I make no sense when I talk to people, my responses appear to be odd at times and quite irrelevent. I question my judgement and how I respond in conversions, to validate if I'm not sounding like a complete lunatic.
Memory: this is by far my worst symptom as it made me see numerous neurologists fearing(agoraphobia) that I might be developing thiamine deficiency or wernicke's korsakoff sydrome, terrififed still that this might be the case, even more terrified that if it is the case then I'm permanently damaged. My recall is just THAT BAD!
Physical symtoms; I have little to no physical symptoms at all, no tinnitus, or any other physical symptom. Then again, I was never one to complain about any physical systoms to begin with.
I continue to hold on to the little faith I have left for healing or ever obtaining my mental abilities. But a part of me has came to accept what has happened, I have no expectations, if this is how its gonna feel like till death, then fine. Said too many prayers and had no response. Its in such experiences I'd see why a person would turn to rebuke the existence of a God and become athiest, however, I haven't done that. Still hanging on.
Acceptance makes it a little less harder, by a fragment.
On with the struggle, keep strong guys.
Dave.
