Well, in December i was feeling a bit better for about 10 days. I didnt have dizziness, no eye pain, no heart palpitations, fog was about 10% better. I didnt feel that much better, but a tiny bit. After that came all the stressors and now I am back in the deepest hell imaginable, maybe even worse than before the feeling better part. Was that a window? I didnt feel like " Hey, Im better" It was like very gradual and alomst unnoticable untill i got very bad again.
Yes this is very well possible, I had about the same experience when I was about 17 months off. Felt suddenly way better and all my old passions came back. It was some time before I found out about WD and it was a strange sensation that I felt so much better after being in hell for one and a half year.
After that I felt back in what I know was a new wave and felt as bad as before. The overall pattern shoud be that the waves become shorter and less intense, but this is not always the case. Sometimes a wave is worse than the previous ones. Though this does NOT mean that you are not healing!
Every wave is a phase in the healing process, and every wave brings you closer to recovery, even iif it is worse than the previous wave.
Recovering from the ravages of withdrawal after 5 years on Paxil/Seroxat, originally prescribed for stress and, looking backward, PTSS.
Though it is hardly possible to get something positive from the utter hell of repeated c/t's and protracted w/d, all of this unnecessary, I still believe in the possiblity to emerge from this as a healed, wiser human being.
All we need is just a little patience - Guns N' Roses
Yes, it looks like a window there. And it's a very good sign. It means your body is healing, even if it may not feel this way yet.
Keep walking. Just keep walking.
Claudius, you have good explained how are the waves; i would add a bad wave and then a less bad wave and so on
12 years paxil(9 years only 10 mg) - cold turkey(1,5 month) and switch celexa tapered 1 year 20 mg
62 years old - for GAD - 4 years 3 months meds free [since april 2009]
vegetables soup - orange (vit C) - curcuma - some meat or fish
If i had a window, thats good right? Because at that time i was 5 months off? Now im back in even worse hell. I hope this ends one day.
It's very good you had a window. You are healing at this very moment. It gets better and better and better.
Meds free since June 2005.
"An initiation into shamanic healing means a devaluation of all values, an overturning of the profane world, a peeling away of inveterate handed-down notions of the world, liberation from everything preconceived. For that reason, shamanism is closely connected with suffering. One must suffer the disintegration of one's own system of thought in order to perceive a new world in the higher space."
-- Holger Kalweit
It means your CNS is realigning itself. It's working on establishing homeostasis big time. Paradoxically, reentering the wave period is a part of healing, too.
Keep walking. Just keep walking.
Good point. Easy to forget.
Meds free since June 2005.
"An initiation into shamanic healing means a devaluation of all values, an overturning of the profane world, a peeling away of inveterate handed-down notions of the world, liberation from everything preconceived. For that reason, shamanism is closely connected with suffering. One must suffer the disintegration of one's own system of thought in order to perceive a new world in the higher space."
-- Holger Kalweit
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