thank Luc, and Im sorry everyone I seem to be so needy and uncertain, I dont want to ruin the vibe of this board, Im really really sorry.. xxxxx
thank Luc, and Im sorry everyone I seem to be so needy and uncertain, I dont want to ruin the vibe of this board, Im really really sorry.. xxxxx
Put on citalopram July 2009 during a physical illness - didnt need it. 40mg
went down to 20mg July 2010 CT in Jan 2012 - 2.5 years on.
Tried to restart July 2012 due to 1 panic attack (never had one before - start of CT W/D) - adverse reaction
Down to 1.5mg from the failed RI
Now at 0.48 and trying to stabalize - been 6 weeks
now have SEVERE anxiety, akathsia, feel like Im on acid 24/7 depression, D/P, signed off work. Scared of everything..please God let me heal from this
nobody ruins the vib of this board, as long as he says the truth, even when hurting;
Iggy, you are not "ruining" anything. :)
Keep walking. Just keep walking.
How can reaching out for help ruin the vibe of a board that is here to help people who need it? *slaps you* STOP IT!!!
Aropax (Paxil). Currently at 13mg and holding.
Added Endep (amitrypline) 12.5 for sleep - 11 July 2013
"There are things that are known and things that are unknown; in between are doors." - Anonymous
Iggy, everyone here understands what you are going through. You are not alone and definitely not ruining the board. If anything I'm very proud of you for saying things that I myself am not able to say. When people respond it helps me too. :-) So thank you.
Oh, the Tudors and their England are fascinating. There was a Masterpiece Theatre series on Henry VIII that everyone was into in the ‘70s –
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Six...28TV_series%29
and a friend and I would dress up and act it out. OMG, we loved it.
But, I don’t think this is just escapism on your part, Iggy. I think it’s something more.
I’ve had passions like this in adulthood, too, starting with a movie or play or news item, and turning into a months’-long personal research project They’re wonderful. And I think they’re more than just entertainment. They’re breadcrumbs on the trail to your truest passions. Don’t worry about trying to figure it out. Just keep following the breadcrumbs, ie follow that *feeling*, whenever you feel absorbed by something. It will lead to something, even though we don’t know what yet.
Meds free since June 2005.
"An initiation into shamanic healing means a devaluation of all values, an overturning of the profane world, a peeling away of inveterate handed-down notions of the world, liberation from everything preconceived. For that reason, shamanism is closely connected with suffering. One must suffer the disintegration of one's own system of thought in order to perceive a new world in the higher space."
-- Holger Kalweit
and when you dressed up Sheila, who were you? I can see you as a flighty Catherine Howard or perhaps the kind and gentle Jayne Seymor?
Put on citalopram July 2009 during a physical illness - didnt need it. 40mg
went down to 20mg July 2010 CT in Jan 2012 - 2.5 years on.
Tried to restart July 2012 due to 1 panic attack (never had one before - start of CT W/D) - adverse reaction
Down to 1.5mg from the failed RI
Now at 0.48 and trying to stabalize - been 6 weeks
now have SEVERE anxiety, akathsia, feel like Im on acid 24/7 depression, D/P, signed off work. Scared of everything..please God let me heal from this
The Six Wives of Henry VIII - Ha! One person from my family loved it back then. Need to check if it's on Youtube and in what languages.
Keep walking. Just keep walking.
Oh, no……the canny and powerful Anne Boleyn! ;)
Iggy -- Have you read Fiona Buckley’s “Ursula Blanchard” mystery series? It takes place in Elizabethan England and has a woman protagonist who solves mysteries. It involves the Court. I recommend it!
Meds free since June 2005.
"An initiation into shamanic healing means a devaluation of all values, an overturning of the profane world, a peeling away of inveterate handed-down notions of the world, liberation from everything preconceived. For that reason, shamanism is closely connected with suffering. One must suffer the disintegration of one's own system of thought in order to perceive a new world in the higher space."
-- Holger Kalweit
Thanks sheila, I have read C J SANSOMES series its so wonderful about a hunchback lawyer in tudor times solving muder mysteries, these books also include the kings court, it sounds similar Ill check it out, although cognative abilities seem to be getting worse.
well you CANT be Anne Boleyn, because *I want* to be anne boleyn, Luc can be henry,
hmmmm I guess Ill let you be anne, so
Luc - King Henrt
Sheila - Anne Boleyn
GrD - Katherine of aragon
Me - Jayne Semor
M&M - Catherine Howard
Annie - Anne of Cleves
Cosette - Catherine Parr
Stan can be the powerful and radical Thomas Cromwell
Put on citalopram July 2009 during a physical illness - didnt need it. 40mg
went down to 20mg July 2010 CT in Jan 2012 - 2.5 years on.
Tried to restart July 2012 due to 1 panic attack (never had one before - start of CT W/D) - adverse reaction
Down to 1.5mg from the failed RI
Now at 0.48 and trying to stabalize - been 6 weeks
now have SEVERE anxiety, akathsia, feel like Im on acid 24/7 depression, D/P, signed off work. Scared of everything..please God let me heal from this
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