Anxiety

[Iggy131313]

yes yes yes and yes...GrandmaD this describes it very very well

like you are hiding, expecting to be found/caught

thanks sheila yes that makes ense to me that some people may try to rationalise the sensation and focus it on real life things, I dont do that, I just experience it and HATE it I HATE IT

Squirrel - so now your anxiety is more related to external stressers?

[Iggy131313]

one word is with me all the time, content....do you remember how it felt to feel content? oh to feel content again, what I wouldnt give, what we all wouldnt give

[squirrel]

my anxiety is more related to how much longer am I going to feel ill for.

[Iggy131313]

oh Squirrel, its so unfair, you should not have to suffer for so long, so is the balance and head pressure and all those horrid things that really bother you? and the feeling of not being ''plugged in''

[squirrel]

yes. as you can imagine the horrible anxiety was bad enough but add the balance stuff to that and I really could not venture out on my own! it is getting better now I no longer feel like I am on a speed boat but my confidence just for walking has really taken a bashing!

[Iggy131313]

criminal, just criminal...I get what you mean about being on a boat though, I find myself leaning over when Im standing and losing my footing for no reason, also in bed I feel movement....the worst is if I go in a lift (elevator) and when I get out I can still feel the movement for a long time and feel off balance...its interesting for me as my job (I will probably never go back to) is/was mobility officer and I specialist with working with students (in a college) who either were wheelchair users or had mobility issues, I think some of what the balance is, is spacial awareness, we dont have it.

Slowly but surely things are improving for you though Hun, too slowly and not surely enough.

Thinking of you my fellow Northerner. x

[squirrel]

thank you, yeah all those things feeling like you slipped on a banana skin ( but there is non there)being in a lift or escalator and you get off but you still feel movement! and the bed thing! mine starterd off mild but then went through the roof. its a horrible sensation.

[Junior]

The problem with the term 'anxiety' is that it is very much an umbrella term. It can mean anything from a few worried thoughts to severe nervous system disruption. For you Iggy, it sounds like it is the more the latter, only not severe but moderate. I have a similar issue after each drop and it is really annoying. In my case,however, I already lived with GAD for many years so I've learned to live with it. Naturopathic supplements have helped me a great deal :D

[Luc]

Luc, what is your anxiety like? is it getting anxious about things or worrying about things you dont need to worry about or is it the free floating stuff that I have described/?

As much as I'd like to be able to define it, it's next to impossible. I have this personal journal of mine, in which I am describing the entirety of WD, and a couple of other things. I've been adding to it, sometimes a page in a week, sometimes just a sentence, sometimes nothing. I've been doing it now for more than 5 years (I had started it before I went into WD). I've managed to get to more than 400 pages now. And, even if you read it all, Iggy, all the descriptions in it, it can't come even close to somehow showing it the way it really feels (or, should I say, the way it used to feel in early WD).