Thanks for the update, Stan. Even if slowly, the improvement is happening. Day and night. And despite not being there yet, you put some much work into the forum. This will help you recuperate faster. Just stay the course, my friend.
You wrote "walking stiff in constant alert, have" - how is your balance in general these days?
Keep walking. Just keep walking.
walking less stiff, less in alert, standing a little better, less suffering, more energy, can walk more far with less chest pain; hope it is not a window, seems definitive little improvements; feeling as i am going down the mountain i so long were climbing;
i have difficult sensation when lying horizontal, but it was worse before i am as now since a while; new problems (ear deaf tinnitus, bladder, gallbladder area, low back pain, maybe kydneys) but when speak in street, just little overhelmed, my muscles to stand, to walk seem to come back, derealization is here, but some period of day very manageable; the worse seem to going to horizontal bed, the eyes focus concentration standing excitability seems very better, akathisia has lessen; all is here but much more manageable livable; if i had do CBT, it seem to be unuseful, having made heavy improvements only by waiting and walking slowly ; a little fatigued when on computer; but i sleep in the morning, not night;
if i do not had these strange problems in bladder and gallbladder diaphragm(hope it is not cancer, i take the risk to not go to doctors) i could say i am seeing the light of the tunnel, even having back pain, dry mouth eyes...
i will see this month what will happen
12 years paxil(9 years only 10 mg) - cold turkey(1,5 month) and switch celexa tapered 1 year 20 mg
62 years old - for GAD - 4 years 3 months meds free [since april 2009]
vegetables soup - orange (vit C) - curcuma - some meat or fish
I feel happy for you,Stan! Time brings us real improvements.
Severe anxiety since childhood .SSRIs for OCD.
Major traumatism in my life:Prozac during short periods.
Deroxat (=Paxil) during 7 years.
Three unsuccessful atempts to quit.
Deroxat free since may 2008 (Cold turkey )
There's no doubt you have improved so much, Stan. And it doesn't neccessarily need to be a window these days, but the improvement in general. I truly believe that one of your next updates (at 48 months off) will be even better than this one.Originally Posted by stan
Keep walking. Just keep walking.
Im cheering you on Stan, keep going, after reading through your journal I can see that you are making progress even if its hard for you to see. Sending you healing vibes from England. xx
Put on citalopram July 2009 during a physical illness - didnt need it. 40mg
went down to 20mg July 2010 CT in Jan 2012 - 2.5 years on.
Tried to restart July 2012 due to 1 panic attack (never had one before - start of CT W/D) - adverse reaction
Down to 1.5mg from the failed RI
Now at 0.48 and trying to stabalize - been 6 weeks
now have SEVERE anxiety, akathsia, feel like Im on acid 24/7 depression, D/P, signed off work. Scared of everything..please God let me heal from this
thanks Iggy,
since 2/3 days, i suffer again more, akathisia is back, off balance back, derealization, spine pains, sleeping dry mouth etc; but i have some more improvements ;
it seemed a window; i will have to wait the next
12 years paxil(9 years only 10 mg) - cold turkey(1,5 month) and switch celexa tapered 1 year 20 mg
62 years old - for GAD - 4 years 3 months meds free [since april 2009]
vegetables soup - orange (vit C) - curcuma - some meat or fish
Step by step, Stan. You are adding more and more of those improvements.
Keep walking. Just keep walking.
Despite my sleeping is a nightmare and all my pains, today i had a half window again, more quiet, better walking, more happy, less derealization, some nausea
how will be tomorrow?...
the last was 5 days ago
12 years paxil(9 years only 10 mg) - cold turkey(1,5 month) and switch celexa tapered 1 year 20 mg
62 years old - for GAD - 4 years 3 months meds free [since april 2009]
vegetables soup - orange (vit C) - curcuma - some meat or fish
Meds free since June 2005.
"An initiation into shamanic healing means a devaluation of all values, an overturning of the profane world, a peeling away of inveterate handed-down notions of the world, liberation from everything preconceived. For that reason, shamanism is closely connected with suffering. One must suffer the disintegration of one's own system of thought in order to perceive a new world in the higher space."
-- Holger Kalweit
I know what you mean about sleep Stan. But windows are good. From what I 've heard, there will be more and more of them until you don't even notice windows anymore. Yayyyyyyyyy for healing!
Aropax (Paxil). Currently at 13mg and holding.
Added Endep (amitrypline) 12.5 for sleep - 11 July 2013
"There are things that are known and things that are unknown; in between are doors." - Anonymous
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