I so know what you mean, Stan. It's really frustrating, but it's just the recovery pattern; next time the "worse" will be just "bad", and then the "bad" will become "tolerable", and so on. Eventually all pieces of the Rubik's Cube will make that final click in their pre-designed places, and we will have healed. Just a tiny bit more.Originally Posted by stan
Keep walking. Just keep walking.
thanks all my friends,
i will see in a few hours my night...
12 years paxil(9 years only 10 mg) - cold turkey(1,5 month) and switch celexa tapered 1 year 20 mg
62 years old - for GAD - 4 years 3 months meds free [since april 2009]
vegetables soup - orange (vit C) - curcuma - some meat or fish
Ouf, i slept this night!
it was not easy because of this akathisia lying and back pain, chest pains, kind vertigo... but i arrived to sleep my 5 hours, so i feel better this day,
as i was sleeping, i forget to do the partial relaxation progressive i planed, and slept with pains...
Last edited by stan; 12-28-2011 at 03:28 PM.
12 years paxil(9 years only 10 mg) - cold turkey(1,5 month) and switch celexa tapered 1 year 20 mg
62 years old - for GAD - 4 years 3 months meds free [since april 2009]
vegetables soup - orange (vit C) - curcuma - some meat or fish
Hallelujah!
Meds free since June 2005.
"An initiation into shamanic healing means a devaluation of all values, an overturning of the profane world, a peeling away of inveterate handed-down notions of the world, liberation from everything preconceived. For that reason, shamanism is closely connected with suffering. One must suffer the disintegration of one's own system of thought in order to perceive a new world in the higher space."
-- Holger Kalweit
Next time don't forget the relaxation and you will sleep 10 hours!
Severe anxiety since childhood .SSRIs for OCD.
Major traumatism in my life:Prozac during short periods.
Deroxat (=Paxil) during 7 years.
Three unsuccessful atempts to quit.
Deroxat free since may 2008 (Cold turkey )
Good to hear you got some decent sleep Stan although I do realize, from your post, that it was not a comfortable night.
Stan, I hope you don't mind me sharing something that I implement. I post reminder notes for myself and place them in view. For example, you can place a reminder note on your pillow so when you go to bed you will remember to engage in progressive relaxation for a few minutes.
Also, (and I can only speak for myself) I find that if I leave progressive relaxation for bedtime, I'm too tired to engage in it. So, I engage about an hour before and several times during the day. That's what works for me but I do realize that each person will have to design a method that works best for them.
In the near future your nights will become better and better. This is such a long journey but eventually things do start to click into place.
Samsara
I'm glad my post was meaningful to you Stan! BTW, thanks for letting me know this.
Samsara
(night was as each night, a nightmare)
yesterday walk
my regular chest pain forces me to regularly stop;
tiredness
off balance, ribcage and spinal pain
today walk
my regular chest pain has diminished 90 %;
i stopped rarely and because of tiredness,
off balance, ribcage and spinal pain
12 years paxil(9 years only 10 mg) - cold turkey(1,5 month) and switch celexa tapered 1 year 20 mg
62 years old - for GAD - 4 years 3 months meds free [since april 2009]
vegetables soup - orange (vit C) - curcuma - some meat or fish
You are being very brave and disciplined, Stan. I really admire that. You *will* heal, and I think things will get better as soon as we all recover from the holidays.
Meds free since June 2005.
"An initiation into shamanic healing means a devaluation of all values, an overturning of the profane world, a peeling away of inveterate handed-down notions of the world, liberation from everything preconceived. For that reason, shamanism is closely connected with suffering. One must suffer the disintegration of one's own system of thought in order to perceive a new world in the higher space."
-- Holger Kalweit
the duration was only one day, since chest pain back, but it will come back, i just do not know when...
(my big problem is this kind akathisia/vertigo when lying in bed)
off balance, ribcage and spinal pain is also a problem
12 years paxil(9 years only 10 mg) - cold turkey(1,5 month) and switch celexa tapered 1 year 20 mg
62 years old - for GAD - 4 years 3 months meds free [since april 2009]
vegetables soup - orange (vit C) - curcuma - some meat or fish
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